The 1 Year Anniversary of My Journey

This time last year emotionally, financially, and spiritually I was suffering and hurting to the point I almost broke. I was bent in so many ways; Forward, backwards, side ways and in ways I didn't know I could bend. I reached my breaking point and almost lost it. This time during the previous year, I wanted to commit suicide. Many would think they know what it is you were going through, but I mastered the poker face and putting up a front. The events of my life from 2011 until the end of 2012 were a made for movie moments. The title of that movie would be along the lines of, "When A Woman's Fed Up," "Whose Life I'm Living," "Why Me?," "Thin Line Between Love and Hate," "When It Cuts Deep," "Snapped The Movie," "When Loving You Is All I Knew," "Is This Life," "No Control," and so many more titles could speak of my life in the departments of love, spiritual, financial, and more. I allowed so many different people and material things to control my happiness. Those two years were the worst, and the only thing that came out positive was the birth of my beautiful daughter Briyanna. She is a blessing to me, a reminder that I am stronger then I could ever imagine. Of course, I didn't know how I would do it alone but I was never alone. God was always with me and still is on this very day. The saying, "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger" is indeed the truth. I am stronger now then I have ever been, in every department. One of the hardest things I had to learn to do in life was letting go.  Whether it’s feelings of guilt, anger, disappointment, loss or betrayal.  Change is never easy.  We fight to hold and we fight to let go.  But we must eventually let GO.  There’s no point in stressing over what I couldn't change.  I grew and learned from my mistakes and experiences. I vow to never let my past mistakes hinder me. I shall grow from the experiences and gain strength. I'm gaining strength everyday I take back my freedom from those who meant no good in my life. I'm clearing the clutter and making room for better memories. I had to also learn that Sometimes life doesn’t give you what you WANT because you NEED something else.  And what you need often comes when you’re not looking for it. My soundtrack to my life now is..."Life Is Good"